Is it spring yet? I sit at my desk and see the sunshine all day long. Soon, we can go out and enjoy it. I'm particularly looking forward to opening the sunroof on my new car, putting on my new shades and heading for someplace fun! Spring is about new beginnings. I've already started my own in January. I don't want to rush it but can't wait for what is to come.

Becca took it easy on me tonight. I think she saw just how blown out my legs and chest were from saturday. I love sessions like that though. Where I can still feel the work two days later. It's incredibly gratifying. We took 4 week pictures and I am scared to compare. I'm just afraid I won't be able to see enough results to spur me on. I don't want anything to bring me down. I've had a lot of affirmations from people but haven't gotten it from people I thought would say something. I have to keep up with my cardio in order to get the results I want. One good thing about tonight is I can still feel that slow smoldering burn. It's not intense but a warm burning all over my body. I still have on my sweats because I don't want it to go away! Not to mention I talked to Dad tonight who had been on the treadmill 3 times a week for the last week since I visited and he saw what I had accomplished!

Date last night was great. Totally not anything compared to what I have dated in the past. Not by body type, personality, background or anything. There was a sweetness about him that I want to know more about. We are both still new to gay relationships so I think that will make for a good pairing. Hopefully we can learn from one another and see what happens from there. Doesn't hurt when after the goodnight kiss there is a pause and then he says, Damn! Still got it! I'm really looking forward to showing him around Cincinnati and helping find the things that he enjoys. I definetly wish I had someone like that when I moved here. And if something beyond that happens then even better!

Work is still pretty draining. While I do appreciate the development program I'm involved in I still wish I was able to make it more of a priority. I can't figure out how to best balance it all. Since it is all a priority at this point. Who knows. The important part is the right people are noticing me do the right things. Now I have to make sure that the wrong things I can control just don't happen so there isn't a chance they will be noticed. It is so frustrating to have serveral people around you who are unable to rise to at least a minimal amount of what is expected of them. I can't let that drag me down or be consumed by spending time shouting to the rooftops how inept they are. It doesn't make me look any better. Like my dad always comments, I'll remember it happened and the right time and place will present itself for me to share. It's true...

All in all I would say my plan for 2009 is right on track. It's time for me. Time to make the changes I want to make. Time to get the things I want. Time to meet the people I want to meet. It's my time to shine and I'm going to make it happen.

Totally loving the weather today. Totally should have taken the whole day off. It was nice sleeping in though.

Hit the club last weekend. It was good to cut loose and have a good time. Logo was there with freebies and lots of eyecandy. too bad none of it was local. I did enjoy the drag show immensely and am looking forward to the warmer months when more people venture about. Met Calpernia Adams during the show and on the dance floor. Interesting to say the least. Especially since I spent so much time making fun of her while watching the show.

Mom and her fam came up for a visit on monday. They were on spring break. It was cool to take them out to dinner for a change. I thought my mom was going to come unglued. It was 50 bucks for 5 of us including tip! (love the little local owed mexican restaurants) I was just really glad to spend time with my bro and sis. They are quickly becoming individuals and I want to be a part of that. 14 and 15 are good ages. I just want them to want me around when they hit 18 and 21. I think I can help balance out the conservative front end of their lives. HA!

Dad came up last night to visit. He always takes the week of his birthday off. I made a big pan of lassanga and opened a nice bottle of chianti. All turned out really well. You can always tell from the lack of conversation because of the mastication going on. Slept in instead of taking dad out for brunch. The crepes with peaches and brandy sauce made up for it though.

Getting ready for a rock and roll of a month. April is busy busy between Derby events in Louisville, Red Heads weekend at Makers Mark in Lexington and b day preparations. May doesn't get much better but June is going to be the craziest. I didn't do any PRIDE events last year so I have a lot to make up.

Car shopping had become a little more intense. I' so scared to take the plunge. IT's going to be the largest purchase I've made besides the education. That was a no brainer if I ever wanted to live outside my parents house. This is different. My car runs well, has some cosmetic issues and has treated me well. It's just old and I never know what's going to happen next. Do I want to put a grand into something that I don"t want now and may really not want later?

Looking forward to a weekend home. May hit the club again on Saturday. We will see!

So I have been receiving the most annoying emails from Xanga that I never write anymore. Chipper, endearing, almost personal peals to return to the sight and let loose. Made me feel like it was missed.

And now that I have my new MacBook! WOO HOO! I have been looking at a new comp for quite some time. All the while saving my pennies for a MacBook Pro. Then I got to thinking about what I actually use my laptop for. Web browsing, lite word processing, a few excel sheets here and there, IM'ing has become a thing of the past or everyone I know has changed their screen name and not told me and last but not least a few simple games. Why do I need the most powerful comp on the line? SO I bought the basic MacBook and put the rest of the fundage on my credit card. I like having a zero balance

As far as my last post goes the Meds are helping. I am still in the market for a counselor but that should be remedied soon. I have a few other goals that need attention in order to help with the depression. Had to go on blood pressure meds as well. Not a fan. Of course dropping a few lbs would definitely help with both situations. Wish I could find the self control and confidence.

Aaron's ankle is healing slowly but surely. He slipped on the ice back in Febuary and broke his ankle. 11 screws and a 6 inch plate later. He gets around the apt well without putting pressure on it. We went out to dinner last night. Just wish the whole process could be sped up. I know he wants to get back to walking and working. Not to mention if the only interaction you had for weeks on end was alone in your apartment with my face every night, sheesh!

SOOOOOO that's about it.